Tuesday, October 27, 2009
{ 9:33 PM }
current mood: enjoying life.
currently listening to: amaku hateshinaku by DBSK
wow.. today is kinda hectic.. stupid lor. haha.. came late to EMP.. had to do a dare.. walau. had my bra strap slapped on my shoulder.. haha. went fr freakin therapy after school.. so boring.. just sit there.. doing nth while heat and electromagnets transfered thru my body.. haha.. i did abit of EMP reading tho.. surprisingly.. with things on the way i took the bus 502 to town.. well i over slept till city hall apparently.. haha..
went home after round 830.. haha then kinda slept standing fr abit.. haha.. otw home saw weird things.. haha saw someone who looked like my friend whom i havent seen in years.. haha.. was weird.. then on the bus home saw this two african dudes in shiny tops waiting fr the bus.. i was trying to restrain my laughter in the bus since i was alone.. then.. dropped off frm the bus and saw this guy.. who looked like Syed Azmir frm anugerah.. i feel so weird.. haha dunno whether to believe or nt.. hahaha..
reached home.. did finance.. urgh theory.. haha was such a stressed moment.. but then finished.. looked thru facebook.. then saw DBSK news on the net.. kinda glad they would most prob b staying tgtr.. haha. well my posts are always boring and uneventful.. and very wordy... nvm.. i c ya'll soon..
Monday, October 26, 2009
{ 11:27 PM }
current mood: aching n sleepy
currently listening to: the only exception by paramore.
today i feel so lazy somehow.. just the thought of updating just made me feel lethargic.. i dunno if its me or if its the therapy sessions ive been going to.. its just weird cuz ive nvr been very tired n sleepy everytime i go out.. anywho.. i still have to go fr therapy tmr.. so super lazy.. aha.. school was alright i guess since i cud update during lecture haha.. went to rp after that to watch sp ruggers's final match for pol-ite games this year.. they actually did great haha... im proud of em.. but i wont be seeing most of them after this year cuz they are graduating nxt year.. kinda sad cuz they are good players haha. i miss sports..
wow.. i really do miss playing sports.. soccer, netball, and others... the adrenaline rush excites me and its what keeps me motivated to play.. having internal pains isnt smth that is fun cuz i need to execise to be healthier and not go fr stupid therapy sessions... haiz.. i miss shooting the ball into the net with the defender 3 feet infront of me.. haha.. i miss how my netball coach, ms gan screams at me when i dont get the ball in.. that kind of pressure always gives me the confidence to put in the goal.. but my appendix or what ever is on the right side of my lower abdomen is always hurting if i overwork myself or i think too much.. it kinda sucks for me cuz sports were the only thing i had growing up.. i was addicted to sports ever since i was like 4 or 5... it was like what i was supposed to do..
on the other hand.. music is also a calling for me i guess.. but then i know that im never good enough for it.. i cant play any instruments even if i tried.. i cant sing well.. but i guess some of my friends beg to differ.. one thing why i cant succeed in music is that i cant play instruments.. two. i dont have anyone to perform with.. three. i dont have any songs of my own. four. i cant really write much cuz i cant compose.. five.. im not worth having such talents.. ahaha.. well 5 main reasons why music dont do good for me either.. now i just dont know what the hell to do with my life..
maybe i'll just follow my dad's plan for me.. finish poly get a diploma.. then go australia and get a degree. come back find a stable job and save for marriage. then get married and move into new house.. then get kids and live happily with my family.. well i guess that might be the plan for me.. sometimes when my mum asks me when i plan to get married.. i always stutter to ans her.. when my dad asks me hows my studies going i always stutter too.. its just smth that is meant to wait until i have an end product to deliver to them.. guess i'll have to wait for another year..
its been a long day. and i have to get some sleep fr 8 am class tmr.. good day people.
{ 2:17 PM }
Current mood: flu-ish
Currently listening to: stupid lecture..
Im actually sitting here in lecture looking over the whole lecture hall frm the corner.. Im kinda nt really listening to the lecturer cuz its nt worth listening cuz shes boring. Haha..
looking down on my coursemates im thinking why im here.. I dont really listen and im kinda not really the kind that will always b super lazy to do stuff. Haha. But then i will still do work luhs i guess.. Dont really wanna dissappoint anyone haha..
Gotta go listen nw. Ciao.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
{ 8:00 PM }
current mood: kinda thinking.
currently listening to: shelter bye jaejoong & yoochun
its been can i say mths since ive blogged. its been hectic.. well most of it was lazy.. well ive been living under a rock half these times and ive been spending most of my time outside hanging out at the playground near my house.. its kinda sad cuz i have no were else to go. its just that my friends are always there to hangout with but then im just sitting there doing nth but stare and drink my green tea.. ive been kinda oblivious to the fact that i miss something that was almost there.. it just hit me just now when i was reading and blog hopping. reality is that im the kind of person that nvr really finishes what she started..
examples will be my school.. i dropped out of biz to go into dmc.. i dint finish what i started but im trying to finish this.. another is this wonderful guy i met in my year one of dmc.. hes very nice.. always there to talk to and always there to cheer me up.. ive been neglecting him ever since holidays started or just abit b4 that cuz im busy doing nth with my life.. i miss the times we talk and joke around.. i miss the times that we meet up to get our fav drinks at starbucks and just sit and b silly. i miss the times when i hear him playing the guitar and playing a few songs that i fancy.. i just miss hugging him whenever i see him around.. but the one thing i miss most is his goofy smile he gives me everytime he sees me.. well i cant do anything much cuz i know he might have someone there for him.. someone so much better.. he deserves someone better.. he deserves someone that will always be there to see him on stage.. to have drinks with him at starbucks and just have a laugh about everything.. to just goof around with him and hug him when ever..
i guess im fine with everything now.. life love work play.. its all good.. i do miss what i used to have but i still have to concentrate on the present.. its a good start fr me cuz its smth new.. im starting to cut down on those things that makes u have cancer.. im starting to walk around more and enjoy fresh air.. im starting to get into music again but its going to be a halfway thing for me cuz i know im not good enough.. and im starting to realise that i have to live life one step at a time to enjoy lifes goodness. maybe i should start getting myself a drink at starbucks alone.. i dont mind.. it would b kinda refreshing.
i guess life isnt supposed to be just happy endings.. its kinda like hardships and suffering and heartbreak and also death.. im beat.
