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Saturday, August 30, 2008 { 1:54 AM }

I’ve got some story to tell you
I hope you don’t mind just stay awhile
It’s been too long since we had a chance
And everything seems to be alright

You look so worried and troubled
What’s on your mind please tell me so
We have all night to share your sorrow
I don’t wanna see you all alone

You will never understand what I went through
All the nights that I’ve been crying by myself
Now it seems that I have only one more chance
All I’ve got are these four words to you

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

There’s so many things I want to show you
But I have to leave this all behind
Everything that we went through
Is just another memory on my mind

We’ll meet again someday
I really want to make it up to you
Too many things we share together
It would be a waste if we let it go.

You will never understand what I went through
All the nights that I’ve been crying by myself
Now it seems that I have only one more chance
All I’ve got are these four words to you

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

Come back to me
Come back to me
And let me take you far away and set you free
Come back to me
Come back to me
Until my dying day I will be your wings

Come Back To Me - PeepShow

{ 12:51 AM }

current mood: tired
currently listening to: peepshow!

wow. its like been so long since ive posted. fr a week plus. haha. might have been busy with writing. haha i write songs but i stop halfway. haha. okay. lets start

monday 25th aug. went to go find jobs with sakinah. haha. it was fun experience. haha. met nice ppl along the way. ahax. then after that went home to slp haha. or just slack uh. none of the places we applied called. dumbfuck.

tues 26th aug. went to dmc chalet. haha. made friends with the seniors. haha. the funny thing was, there were drinks and a dance floor downstairs but most of them were upstairs playing ps2 and cards. thats why playstation is not a good thing to bring during chalets. it dies out the fun. hahaha. and when we were sleeping it was like me reynold kavee azahar fadzly. haha. 5 of us squeezed onto a bed made out of 2 single beds. haha. well. i almost fell of cuz of reynold but he ended talking to me frm 5 am onwards causing me not to slp fr the whole night. haha

weds 27th aug. reached home frm chalet about 1 plus. slept at 3. and woke up at 1130. haha. dint do much that night ah. just listened to music and just dozed off like after 2 hrs ahahaha.

thurs 28th aug. went out with eds. haha. went to watch movie at the cathay. haha clone wars. DO NOT WATCH!. its damn draggy fr an animation. haha. and the plot is so short that when it almost came to the exciting part the movie ended. haha. waste of moolah ppl! then we went to it fair(COMEX) haha at suntec. i saw azlan and his classmates and he was totally checking me out. creepy much haha. then saw the dmc seniors. haha. n saw my classmates too. hahaha damns. then went to esp. tot just wanna chill but then heard soundcheck and watched peepshow do soundcheck. then i went to eat with zaki frm peepshow haha. note: he's hot. =) and hes got a voice that just melts u. then went home met bay at wlds. chilled. haha then went home. sleep. haha

fri 29th aug which is today. went to meet sakinah. haha. passed her my adidas bag. shes got drama camp. damn! hahaha. then went to starbucks with her. greentea frappe! haha. then went banquet eat dinner. haha. then i went to baybeats and she went home. i reached esp at 6. then met up with peepshow. haha then when they went for meet and greet i sat there like stupid and played bleach on my psp. then saw ashida n ashik. omg they getting married lah. haha. nxt year sept. haha. congrats to both of them omg. then i saw wirda n faizal. haha i hugged wirda like super long time nvr c her. cuz i dint c her fr a week plus or 2 weeks. hahaha. damn. then watched leeson. peepshow's set was awesome new songs were great! haqha. i loved all of them cant wait fr them to record them ahh. *melts* tho i stupidly lost the vids i took. but still there were awesome pics. hahaha. hyeah! here are the pics!

zaki and the scarf on the mic stand. haha.

mik showing off haha.

sk haha face blur2.

zaki. full of emotions.

not the whole band. missing yuk and edmund. n okay maybe sk's head.

wow hotstuff edmund. haha. he came in wifebeater plus suspenders. haha.

peepshow's new bassist. fadil. quite hot "he's single" quoted frm zaki. haha

my fav pic. haha. its wow.

me and zaki! haha. awws.

i think thats it for my post today. lazy lah! haha damns.gd nights ppl. will try to update often. but no promises! hahaha

Thursday, August 21, 2008 { 11:35 PM }

current mood: happy!
currently listening to: jonas brothers. =)

random!

today was awesome! haha icp was managable. i noe i can score uh. hopefully. hahaha. then today was the first time i heard hanfei speak chinese. haha. i was laughing2 and he ask me to shut up in chinese. haha so i replied in chinese aso. haha. damn funny. cuz we left early b4 the paper ended. aha. so now im like jumping for joy already. haha. ate my mum cookies just now. they liked it. even sharizan say can bake hari raya cookies. haha.

my ankles better now haha. can walk properly but still abit pain ah. haha. and ive heard of more drama now. haha. but nah im still chill. haha dun like to create drama or be in it.hahaha. tmr going to apply fr a job at f1. hopefully still have ah. haha. like paisey ah. eds gonna accompany me. haha n we can go to starbucks! yay finally. sorry eds fr not going just now. haha. now im all better n we can enjoy! haha

n yeah i might b getting my topman jacket tmr too! finally hahaha. damn! and i wanna get my twilight series. haha 4 books. twilight, new moon, eclipse, breaking dawn. haha. sakinah bring the book tmr!! hahaha. damn. gonna have dinner with my class at 6 at cityhall. then after go watch fireworks festival haha. awesome!

okay now imma rest and eat my mums cookies till they finish! hee imma cookie monster. cant wait for popcorn player this sat also. hee. =) nights everyone!

Wednesday, August 20, 2008 { 10:24 PM }

current mood: sucky =|
currently listening to: metro station =)

stupid short post.

sorry for not blogging fr like a week straight. hah. one im lazy and two i was mugging fr my end sem papers. damn. effing marketing is sooooo stressful! i felt like dying! haha. it was okay. can do but i just crapped my way thru it. and tmr is icp! another one to crap thru ahahahha. =) hee so now im taking a break frm mugging cuz i fell! otw home hah. just put down the phone then i tripped over the curb. haha. damn. now my ankle's busted and its bandage. mum puts loads of effort massaging it. haha. hurts. haha. damn man. then just now mike n jai was plaing guitar n singing awesomeness! haha. now i can just sit ard do nth but read icp.

well. this past week has been funny and sucky and full of drama(i think) haha. funny cuz. been chilling with an mike n jai all. jokes recordings. haha. jokes were damn funny. sometimes an makes jokes and i disturb him and like he pinches me n stuff haha. pain but funny. or vice versa. if i pinch him his expressions are soooo funny! hahaha. puppy dog face lah. wanna cry face lah. hahahaha. n we recorded exclusive me mike n jai. haha. damn. nice yar but sucky abit haha

sucky cuz of the mugging. last min yeah but chiong ah! haha. managed to study but cudnt rmbr the terms man. so it was all bullcrap. hee. so yeah. most of my classmates aso like dat. hahaha. tmr shud be fine. i know i failed the written test by like 2 3 marks. but yeah. haha. imma chiong icp! kampate! haha. damn. drama is funny. haha. but i cant really put down cuz it might damage friendships and also create enemies. im the kind of person who's chill and cool. collected. haha. cuz dun like making enemies. wah i remember sec sch. a group of gals hate me fr no effing reason! haha. damn. maybe they're jealous im one of the guys last time. haha. n hot guys i might add. they're my bros! haha elder bros n younger ones too. haha. what do u expect frm a tomboy.

dont really be fooled by my looks. i might look like i have loads of girlfriends but no. haha. most of my frens are guys. i have specially close gfs yeah. i love them to death. ive know sakinah since p3! haha. ive known hannah fr a year almost 2. haha. i love them so much. also rusydia and aisyah! love them. haha. i have loads of guy bestfriends. khai. hes like my older bro or maybe younger cuz he acts younger then me. hah. ive known him for almost a solid 2 yrs. ahaha. damn awesome. khairul. hes my ex turned bestfriend. i still love him loads even tho we dun really meet much haha. and there's this guy. cant really mention his name cuz its not needed to b known. ive known him since sec 2. we did have something goin on just early this year but yeah. hes like my pillar of strength. i tell him everything. hes like a secret bestfriend cuz his bestfriend cant know that. hah. an and fad. the two bros whom ive known since pri sch. urgh they are just like family. i c them i hug them. they bully me like a lil sis they nvr had. haha. mike. known him since sec 2. hah. hes my lil bro. haha. love him too.

im kinda random when i post blogs. haha. i just say whats on my mind. tmr i wanna go out but my ankle's busted. haha. i'll c how. imma study with sakinah at civic. aha. hopefully can one. hhaha. so imma say good nights and sweet dreams.

Thursday, August 14, 2008 { 11:36 PM }

Check yes Juliet, are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won’t go until you come outside
Check yes Juliet, kill the limbo
I’ll keep tossing rocks at your window
There’s no turning back for us tonight

Lace up your shoes (ay oh, ay oh)
Here’s how we do
Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

Check yes Juliet, I’ll be waiting
Wishing, wanting, yours for the taking
Just sneak out and don’t tell a soul goodbye
Check yes Juliet, here’s the countdown
3-2-1, now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks, don’t let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes (ay oh, ay oh)
Here’s how we do
Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

We’re flying through the night
We’re flying through the night
Way up high
The view from here is getting better with you by my side

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart if you give them the chance (give them the chance)
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we’re not meant to be
Run, baby, run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

You and me
You and me


check yes juliet by we the kings

{ 11:14 PM }

current mood:tired
currently listening to: day 26 =)))

WARNING!:very short and stupid =)

okay. so this week has been okay so far. haha. projects done. just left with mugging. haha thats the sucky part man. haha damn. nxt week exams! damn. im so scared. if i fail fom again im doomed. kicked out of sch. shit! haha. i think ah. but i know i can do good this time. payed attention fr lectures. did most of the tutorials. presentations were awesome haha. all i need is a pass fr the test and im good to go. then there;s icp. hah. shit. icp is like irrelevent yet relevent. haha. i dunno. its a fun topic but the terms and definitions are *ahhh!* hahahaha. damn. dunno if i can rmbr. ive gt 3 days to study fr fom. haha it shud b enuf. and ive got a 4 or 5 days fr icp. hah. then after icp gonna go watch fireworks. haha! woohoo!! hahahaha. damn. cant wait fr exams. i just need to mug mug mug.

so this weekend's gonna b a blast! haha. sat wud b mugging and more mugging. sun wud b shopping, gig-ing then mugging. haha. damn. this weekend is tapestry. haha. its gona b awesome man. arrowhead performing this sat. saving someone this sun. haha. its gonna b fun. this sun most prob me tams and maybe a few others forced by tams going. haha. okay not forced persuaded. haha. damn. i cant wait man.

this few days have been hanging out with mike zam hidir. haha. they are fun bunch. zam ive known him since pri sch so hes like my bro n yeah i did have a crush on him in sec 1 but its all over. haha. hes my bro and i love him like family. haha. he likes to encourage me to sing. haha. cuz he sings and raps. dude got mad skills. aha just now at mikes place me zam hidir and mike were like having fun watching jabbawockeez, day 26, donnie klang, and other artists. hiphop of course cuz ma bros are hiphop-ers ahaha. im stuck being a rock chick but i do love it. i feel like doing covers of hiphop songs haha. esp exclusive by day 26. that song is like wow. its so meaningful and u shud hear them sing is slow and with the piano. haha. and ive been searching fr donnie's album since ever. hahaha.

we made balloons too at mikes place. ate ferrero rocher. =) played gta. actually hidir was there first playing gta and when i reached he was like screaming at the tv. haha almost ah. haha. just bought my contacts. haha. but my freaking pimples are killing me. i wanna know how to remover these stupid blemishes and i want my old smooth skin back.! haha. any reccommendations people?? haha. and finally im gonna get my jansport backpack this sun. haha. daddy's buying! hahaha. its a black with a hawk design on the small pocket infront. its really cool. my bro wud wanna use it but in ur dreams loser! haha. uve got ur own so use urs. haha. mine is cuz u took all my backpacks and either ruined them or nvr returned them. hah. asswipe =) mind my language. to my bro i must be rough haha. he wont b reading this anyways. hahaha.

okay now. my eyes are heavy but i cant sleep. but i'll try anyways. =)) nights sweetdreams everyone!

Sunday, August 10, 2008 { 1:13 AM }




Called you for the first time yesterday
Finally found the missing part of me
Felt so close but you were far away
Left me without anything to say

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

I can’t get your smile out of my mind
(I can’t get you out of my mind)
I think about your eyes all the time
You’re beautiful but you don’t even try
(You don’t even, don’t even try)
Modesty is just so hard to find

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again

Kissed her for the first time yesterday
Everything I wished that it would be
Suddenly I forgot how to speak
Hopeless, breathless, baby, can't you see

Now I’m…
Yeah!

Now I’m speechless
Over the edge
I’m just breathless
I never thought that I’d catch this
Lovebug again

Now I'm hopeless
Head over heels in the moment
I never thought that I’d get hit
By this lovebug again
Ohh... lovebug again







Lovebug by Jonas Brothers

{ 12:54 AM }

current mood: shagged
currently listening to: the sound the fan makes. =)

hey peeps. im sooooo shagged right now. haha just got home frm watching the fireworks. wow. the fireworks were sooo beautiful. omg. if only i had somebody to watch it with. as in somebody special. it was so romantic. i was like watching the fireworks and i was like thinking2 of that special guy that i will nvr get. haiz. well what to do. i have such bad luck with guys anyways. =\ anyways. i watched the fireworks with amanda bay, her sis n her sis' bf. haha. so beng sia.! omg! haha. urgh i hate bengs and lians and mats and minahs! haha. they are so overated. haha. geez. wear freaking shoes fr goodness sake. haha. i think they are meant to wear slippers so when its like packed their feet will get smashed and stepped on and they cud nvr walk agn. i think that wud b like a very very good thing haha. no more of their kind! hahahaha

then after, i chilled with fad an and the rest of the ndp motivators. haha. cool!! omg i missed an n fad super duper much. n yeah hannah also! haha. they are like my family outside my family haha. i love them so much. we chilled at marina square fr a bit after a small bite then we ventured on to esplanade. haha(wah like writing adventure story) haha. went right infront of harry's and like let go of ballons. it was awesome man. haha. then there was this dude who kept taking pics with the dslr. i was so jealous. haha. omg!! haha. but it was an awesome day lah. after that we went to the basement 2 of esp and chilled there. some of the boys were like break dancing. haha. it was funny. then me fad an n mike were lying down on the lift floor taking pics haha. funny! haha. shall post the pics soon haha.

then went home.(so boring) haha. went to the train station n i saw my ex! omg! he looked so diff. he looked handsome and quite changed frm the last time i saw him which was like 3 yrs ago. hah. omg. i dint know why i like let him go also. he was still the guy i fell for 3 yrs ago. hah. okay. n the freaking train ride was so like awkward cuz we dint even talk to each other man. haha. i was standing at the glass panel and was like falling asleep and he was at the pole facing the door. i was behind him of course. i knew that he wanted to talk to me cuz he kept looking behind. haha. i was too shy i guess. hah. or scared. hah. well. during that train ride. i was like trying to hold my laugh in. cuz, i saw this chinese dude fall asleep right after he came into the train at yishun haha. the top of his head was on the glass panel. then his body was like slanted haha. then he was wearing a singlet top. i cud c his nipple(not for underaged) haha. it was funny cuz the aunty nxt to him keep wanting to move to her left more but it was the 2 seater. haha. his body was falling2 to the side n he dint even budge to adjust himself. then nxt to me was this chinese lady. her head keep falling2 and was like bopping forward and backward haha. then when she woke up she did this like breathing exercise i was like "woah wth is she doing man" then she was like trying to stretch her back haha. she dropped of at admiralty with me also. haha. damn funny train ride. i cudnt even slp haha.

after everything today. im finally going off to bed. cuz ive gt a wedding to attend to tmr haha. damn! nights ppl! i'll dream of good things.!

Wednesday, August 6, 2008 { 8:35 PM }

current mood: sleepy and headachey.
currently listening to: there for tomorrow(good band yo) =)

this is going to be one of the longest post ive written haha. surprise2.

wow. ystd was a blast! haha. i had so much fun. cam whoring and eating food. haha. loved the food. ystd was like such a wonderful day that im gonna miss my uncle's family when the go back to aussie. haha. but now my english sounds like aussie english. dammit haha. just abit tho. so its cool. haha. loads of pics were taken. and yeah after like ard 1 my parents went home. my other uncles went home and my aunts also. it was only me uncle kamal, uncle zahari, uncle zul, mal and her bro. so its was fun drinking at the wee hrs of the morning even tho got this damn irritating indian fuckers who were blasting hiphop songs. no offence ah but its kinda annoying in the wee hrs and i dun really listen to them. grr. got home this morning at ard 6 haha then i was knocked out damn bad. haha. once i layed my head on my pillow i was gone. aha. woke up at 3. played ps2 when my parents got back. haha. yeah they are gamers too haha. funky parents i know. haha. then like i was thinking2 and i was totally spacing out man. damn.

i was thinking of loads of things. haha. sch boys and my family. family cuz im gonna miss my uncle. havent seen him or his family fr soooo long. hopefully dad lets me go to aussie nxt year haha. fingers crossed!! haha. sch cuz ive got loads of projects and the are killing me man! argh! i just cant think straight. i havent even started on my oc presentation fr this fri. damn im so screwed. haha. music. what can i write thats persuasive fr music. damn. haha. and its like fr underground artists. haha. i dunno ah. just impromtu. haha. boys. wow. boys is a broad subject fr me. haha. im bad at relationships is one thing. bad luck with boys is another. maybe i shud just frgt abt having a guy and just be single and free. cuz its hard fr guys to get my attention cuz i like have loads of guy frens. haha. its true. im a tomboy but still a girl at heart. haha

guys wud have to do loads of stuff to grab my attention man. im like grr. haha. guys have to sensitive but yet manly so they dont look gay. haha. and also being a musician is a bonus but i dun care what u do as long as u have a great personality im cool. but u got to have great taste in music esp. good music means good mood haha. and i love going to local gigs to support the local bands. i love to belt out local songs like lie you a fairytale or now we will or dkny with my frens. i just love a guy who can like make me laugh all the time. whom i can talk about anything and everything under the big blue sky. he has to be able to accompany me shopping. haha. and someone who i can be my bestfriend and my boyfriend at the same time. i just love someone who can just cheer me up when im down and get along well with my frens esp. if u dun like my frens then say bye bye to ur chances with me. choosy yes but it is what makes me happy. everyone wants to be happy. im not that type who like sticks to my bf every single min. i hate that. i hate guys who do that also. and i dun care who u go out with a guy or girl cuz i dun like being that sort thats over protective. and i had an over protective bf once i was so pissed off that i just dumped him after a mth. it sucks yeah but i dun like to be in a cage. i like to be able to do what i want and when i want. and of course i love a guy who surprises me once in a while even tho we dont go out tgtr much. haha. if u think im too demanding then whatever. haha. its just me. im sure some girls agree to my choice of guys and characteristics of them. so just stfu! hah.

whatever it is i need to slp. i wanna wake up early to do my oc tmr b4 class. haha. and after class im gonna sit infront of my laptop in sch to finish up my oc so i can think of what to say on fri. haha. cheerios and may god b with u. sleep tight everyone! enjot the photos below b4 u go. my head hurts frm thinking too much hah.

thats my mum =|

shahrul steph and farid.

me fifi aunt gillian and hikmah

hikmah josh me fifi

kissy farah

ladies.

pearly whites.

we love to chill. me n my uncles.

look at that wonderful face.

me n nick.

me and steph. aint she pretty.

josh is only 17!

family portrait! wow my face.

love that face i made. haha

that's my granny in the middle.

the grand kids plus mak su and cik zainal hah.

haha jump! but i wasnt jumping.

Sunday, August 3, 2008 { 12:07 AM }

current mood: tired + happy
curently listening to: fightstar!

deafening silence.

that's cassie. their vocalist.

ivory

picture perfect.

thats jialin of saving someone.

saving someone's NEW drummer.

i love his hair!

saving someone.

mr roboto. haha.

cool huh.

well. today was a great day. haha. my family had a kenduri just now. with both my dad n mums side. its a prayer session for the passed on. its for my late grandpa. he passed on 100 days ago. its sad yeah im still reminicsing abt it. damn. but it was fun. families coming tgtr. my uncle is at home haha. with my family now. but tmr hes going off to aloha chalet. haha. tues wud be bbq night fr my dads side. haha. its gonna b fun cuz im not goin sch on weds! haha. maybe i drop by to have vocal sessions with tammy. haha. she wants to.

today was great cuz me tams and yanhan went to home club for touchdown. haha. great bands played. even edwin's band saving someone played. i took their pics fr db. haha. i was lost fr ideas but then i thought of local bands that are easy to reach haha. so yeah. haha. its gonna b a fun process. took loads of pics like u saw above. then me tams n yanhan had a great time even though yanhan had to leave early and cudnt watch saving someone.

deafening silence was great. haha. cassie is an awesome singer and im not =( boo hoo. haha. ivory was awesome too. cuz they cover its dangerous walking out your front door by underoath. one of my fav songs. haha. i was like so stoked just now and i was singing along. me and tams stayed on and stuff. took pics. randomly singing. haha. the singing part was fun haha.

tmr's gonna be a bright new day. if only i can sleep haha. im still abit pissed cuz my hair keeps falling. and maybe one day i might just be bald. damn. haha. im gonna go off now. need to upload my photos. haha. n yeah btw i got a new mint green psp slim. be jealous! hahahhahahha. nights ppl!!